[Nik223]

Friends,

I am going through terrible time in my personal life. I live and work in Australia for few years now. My parents married me to a girl of their choice last summer & ever since then my life has all but nightmare. Actually, I was in relationship before marriage and did not want to marry another woman except i was in love with, however my family at a time of marriage created such a pathetic environment, where I was left with no choice except to go for this marriage as my parents threatened me to commit suicide and break all relations with me, had I not approached for this marriage. I was abused, insulted by my family in a very cruel manner.

Before my marriage, my wife made lot of commitments to my family and they had excellent relationship between them, I tried to convince my wife that our family atmosphere is not good for this marriage due to lot of disagreements but she said marriage has to take place.

My wife came to know everything after my marriage about how this marriage took place. She could not adjust with my parents and started fighting with me and complaining about my family, she slowly started pushing my weak buttons with her anger and tough language. One day she told me I have to choose either my family or her and when I disclosed this to my family, they were shocked. My family advised me to get separated from my wife but I denied as I had no faith in my family they would support me even though I am not happy in this marriage, but I did not know my family had duel face, On front they showed sympathy and regret for their decision on my marriage but on my back, they even were willing to beg my wife and send her with me here in Australia at any cost as they were more scared of legal matters, their pride and their reputation in society than my painful situation.

Now, today me and my family have no contacts with each other. My wife doesn't have any contact with them either. She is in India right now and in process for Australia visa in upcoming months while she works there in her hometown.

I went through car accident, government debt, financial crunch like all craps after marriage but when I discussed everything with my wife to have some patience and give me some time - She was very angry and said I need to solve my own problems. Now, my wife/in laws want to get visa process done for her in short time OR they asked, I need to leave Australia and settle back home with her permanently.

Just to bring my wife in my life, my family went up to extreme level of bad behavior with me. What ever happened to me still I try to keep my wife happy as her anger and fights disturbs me even more in my present situation when I am alone and have no support but I can not love her from my heart.

Today no one is happy with this marriage, but since the marriage is done there no option left except to survive, my wife loves me so she will not leave me at any cost even though I am happy or not, she knows all my weak points including I have no one to stand by, so she has potential to harm my future and image, so now I am in situation where I have take every step considering what others expect from me.

My marriage changed my life in dramatic manner when I was completely different person 2 years back, I feel very lonely, depressed and anxiety these days, I cry everyday once that gives bit relief for a moment.

Today every moment I feel I have lost everything in my life and strongly feel many times to give up this life.

If possible please share your thoughts where should I go.
Thank you.