[tonyw]

i know i have made a mistake , i accept i did wrong , but telling everything wouldnt that mean when i go back with her , how do i explain this .
if i tell everything that happened between me and the other party and we get back together where do i stand.
will she then use this on me when ever she wants .
if i am in bed with her and i have told her everything ,how will i be able to touch her because she will say you did this to the other woman .

i want her to forgive me but not control me
i dont want to be blackmailed by this
i want to be strong not weakened

am i making sense or am i just going down the wrong path