Puglove

Hello! I am new to this forum and need some help, my husband has left me after 9 months of marriage!

I will start from the beginning!

Unfortunately my dad died a month before our wedding last year, what followed due to grief was me becoming an angry, depressed person. I'm 25 my husband is 28. For 5 months after he was lovely, however he has always had a desire to go to the pub quite a bit. We had an argument in feb of this year during which I told him I didn't feel loved and appreciated (due to him leaving a few nights a week to go out.)

From that moment he changed! He said he wasn't sure if he "felt the same" anymore. He then got in with some younger friends and HAD to go out with them twice a week, he would come home from work and go straight out until 2am on a work night.
My mum then paid for me and him to go on holiday for a week with her and my brother in memory of my dad, two weeks before the trip he ran back to his parents for "some space" my mum phoned his parents to see what was going on etc. he the came back saying he did not want to go on this trip! It was all paid for!! I told him it meant a lot to me so he had to go!

He went, we all had a nice time. After that he got worse, he moved to the spare room, was going out more, I couldn't meet these young Friends or go out with him, he wouldn't talk to me.
We tried one relate counselling session during which I screamed at him for not talking. He said "he wanted to do what he wanted to do, all I want is to settle down." Two data later he wants a "seperation" no discussion.

He left to his parents 5 and a half weeks ago. Since then he keeps saying he wants a divorce, but then he will say he doesn't really want to do this but he has no choice because he's not a big fan of my mum, he doesn't feel the same way about me but today on the anniversary of my dads death he came over (fathers day this year he spent it with his new mates!)

He insists he isn't seeing anyone (and I believe him,) he always seems so sad and upset when talking to me.
I admit I had faults, I was an angry and bitter woman. I am on medication and having therapy and feel more like the girl he married again! When I told him this tonight he has said he "hasn't got it him in to argue anymore," "I am only saying what he wants to hear!" Then when leaving he gave me a cuddle!

I really think he isn't himself, not thinking it through, just wanting to "run away," things were never "that bad" we have no money problems, both been faithful, not violent. To me marriage is forever and he is just running at the first hurdle! No one wants us to split up. He won't talk to his parents about this (they don't want us to split) he is convinced my whole family think bad of him (they don't!) he is so thin and I'm just worried why he wants to throw away me, our house when he "doesn't really want to."

I want him back but back to the lovely man he was (and who seems to be coming back!) I don't feel it's over yet! I need advice and help desperately!



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