[Heather]

You are right Raymond - I know the dangers of allowing bitterness to take root... I think, at the moment though it is just a part of the process of working through my sadness. I haven't yet really felt any anger at the situation either (maybe that is to come). Others have been angry and outraged - particularly over my husband considering a new family when we found out about my genetic condition... but I have been too hurt to feel anything else. I have a feeling my counsellor is expecting the anger to come at some point, just as this sadness is and as I find it very difficult to express or even acknowledge my anger in any situation I am glad he will be there.
I have always been brought up to view anger in a negative light, as unacceptable and not something we should show... so it is something I struggle with.
That being said, I do try to guard my heart against bitterness which I know will ultimately only eat away and me and turn me into someone I do not wish to be.
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