My boyfriend and i started to get serious in around may 06... only about 8 months ago. Although this is a short period of time, i have never felt like i do for him for anybody else. Being woken in the morning by texts stating im beautiful and going to sleep being told to sleep well, sleep tight, i know where he is if i need him and he loves me more than anything is what i miss most.
His parents had been getting involved alot because we are both due to go to university and they belived we should be spending more time on our studies, i stopped seeing him so much and when we did she each other the main thing we did was argue, untill eventually he said he didnt want to see me cry anymore and hye had to let me go.
After days of heart ache, i sat down to have a big think, i realsied that it could work, i wanted him more than i had ever wanted anybody. I decided that i needed to get a new job so i wasnt alone so much, we both needed to spend time apart without hassle, to do both work and see our friends etc.
When i suggested this to him he agreed and said he was 70% sure that we could sort it out. however he needed 'time'. so i gave him a little time and asked him to meet me.
i asked if he loved me and he replied yes.
i asked if he wanted to be with me and he replied 'yes'.
so i asked what the problem was, why couldnt we start again only do things tottally different. and he replied he couldnt, he didnt no wot he wanted, n we couldnt start again rite now.
so i asked if that was it, he said yes and he walked me back. he hugged me, i asked him to be honest and said 'does it not hurt everytime you see something which reminds you of me' which he replied yes. i answered then your doing the wrong thing and said goodbye.
Everyone told me to leave him be.. so i didnt text, didnt call.. but now he texts me all the time to ask what iv bin up too, if im ok... to say good nite...
im sooo confused and not sure what to do in order to get him back.
i know that he loves me, i know that he is finding it difficult to leave me alone but its giving me mixed messages, i dont know if i should give up!!
any advice would be great, its difficult to explain my every thought on here but i gave it a shot.
thank you
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