ex husband and other man
I left husband (who gave very little emotional support for 20 years) as I started having an emotional affair, and now with other man. I made my choice than live a lie. Recently, a good friend told me that my husband did not say a good word about me in the last 10 years.
I cant relax totally with current boyfriend. I cant stop contacting ex husband. My current boyfriend is patient with this contact. My current boyfriend is understanding that i cant show/talk much feelings towards him as still feel numb about my marriage - but he knows i care for him somehow which i'm pleased about.
My ex husband shoved me towards the door in anger this week shouting "you left me for another man..." and earlier that day belittled me for no reason. I feel lousy about the situation and have sad memories of old life, and my self esteem is low. Current boyfriend makes me feel like a wonderful person...how can i be!! I had an emotional affair. Noone approves of that. I want to start a new life but cannot let go of my memories and my ex husband. I'll lose my current boyfriend at this rate.
Last edited by Karen100; 1st April 2010 at 10:26 PM.
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