Re: Please Pray for Myself & Family
Thank you Mic for your prayers. I truely appreciate you taking time to pray for myself and family. I have never prayed so much in such a short period of time as these past couple of weeks. Tomorrow will be 3 weeks and I have decided to have a pampering day for myself. Have my hair cut, pedicure and buy some new clothes. I am well overdo. I know your right when you say it hasn't been that long but I am really sick and tired of feeling this way. I want this sadness to go away. I have to remind myself to sit up straight, walk straight and talk a little louder. I am truely not myself at all. and I want myself back. I don't want to feel sad anymore. He made this decision and is with God, but I am still down here trying to go through my regular daily routine of getting up, taking a shower, driving to work, work a full day and then go home. This has been very difficult, just to do these "normal" things. My two sister's and I have had 2 sessions with a therapist together and our 3rd next week. This has been a tremendous help to us. God has opened many doors and I know the He's carring us. I feel like a robot and when I try to remember yesterday, it's a blurr. This is just awful. I have never experienced such pain. My brother was bigger than life and very well known in my town. Everyone respected him and enjoyed being around him. There were so many people that came to honor him, the line was out the door for more than 4 hours. No room to park. What a horrible tragedy. God has shown me that there are many ways we can turn around this tragedy for the good. I keep telling people that if we have learned anything from this, is that we should be more like my brother Kirk. Kinder to one another, our neighbors....hug the people you love and tell them how much they truely mean to you. give them your time and attention. Listen with an open heart and "Pay it Forward". Do something nice for someone each and every day. Don't let a day go by that you don't try to do something nice for someone. Even if they don't know who did it. How about keeping it between you and God. Let's all "Pay it Forward" This world would be a better place if we were more like my brother Kirk.
Thanks for listening,
Mems
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