Re: How do I take the final step?
Hi, hope you are all ok - sorry about the long silence, I have ahd a lot to think about over the past weeks. Strange how I went to counselling for my current problems and have ended up looking a lot further back in my life and learning about why I have reacted in the way I have. It is useful but painful and very thought provoking.
As far as my husband is concerned, we are still apart and when we are together we never seem to speak about anything important. I am getting tired with always being the one to bring the situation up and try to talk about it...my husband just seems to think that if he acts as though everything is normal then we will just carry on as normal. I did ask him if he has had any contact with the oW and he said he had had a few texts - 'sort of winding down texts' was the way he described them. I do know that he rang her whilst I was away with work, although I haven't asked him about that.
I didn't buy him a valentines card this yer and that was really strange - I didn't feel it would be honest to the way i feel. He bought me one saying he loves me, I still find that hard to believe.
So my confusion continues, I am building a life on my own and trying to understand who i am with help from my counsellor.
I get lonely sometimes, usually when I am thinking about all the things the counsellng is bringing up... but I don't feel the same way about my husband anymore and that is maybe the biggest loss.
Anyway, just thought you might like to kno how things are going. Thanks for your care and concern.
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